as a teenager I always toyed with the idea of studying art. I had good grades in art. I took figure drawing classes in every town I moved to. but I didn't have the guts to apply to artschool in Berlin. I saw many of my friends portfolios. people who were much better artists than me. I felt very intimidated by the whole process. I was too chicken to ever try.
following your dreams is very hard. I studied English literature and languages instead. but the need to express myself through art never went away. if you are an artist you may understand. I am not a happy camper unless I create with my hands. when I first moved to the US I went back to painting. I created the oil painting you see below.
|selfportrait "empty glas" also referred to as "banana girl" by DH, oil painting 1998|
I did many drawings and finished about 10 oil paintings during the first two years that I lived in the US. once I had kids I stopped painting because I did not want to expose my kids to the harsh chemicals. also I lacked the time and energy to paint.
next thing I knew the dolls took over and I started putting all my creative energy into them.
but I feel like it's time to go back to drawing and painting again. do you like my painting?
are there dreams that you have been too afraid to follow?